Headaches and the Death of Inspiration?

Posted by on February 21, 2013 in Observations | 13 comments

This is a quick post with a dramatic title! Ok it is OVER dramatic. Inspiration is alive and well in the WoolWench house, it only took a short trip to the beach and returned with a suntan, a souvenir beachball with a happy face on it, and a whole bunch of new ideas. Phew.

I guess this happens to everyone sometimes, a brief hiatus in clear thinking, self doubt creeps up and insinuates itself in everything you do and thought you were pretty happy with, suddenly you find yourself wondering what you thought you were doing in the first place, questioning your ability to even successfully boil an egg, and feeling very very small in relationship to this whole universe/infinity thing. Its big. And it hits a bit like a runaway one of these:

Photo courtesy of my brother Matthew at http://mjwrightnz.wordpress.com/

Luckily we are ALL endowed with Wolverine-like powers of regeneration. I might have mentioned Dr Who-like regeneration but he comes back completely different, most of us are more like Wolverine and come back pretty much the same as we were before, although maybe with that much more determination and experience.

So I had a week of headache starting with a migraine. Blah. I sobbed my story on Facebook and got some lovely support and helpful suggestions. I took them. I rested, and I broke out the Vitamin D. I also ate some yummy Berry and Biscuit Whittakers chocolate (thank you Glynis!). I took the little guy for a walk at a nearby park, did some shopping, and watched Anna Karinina. And I did some spinning, nice simple spinning to relax with ๐Ÿ™‚ Nothing but some nice music playing and the whirrrr of my Aura. THeres something incredibly theraputic about using your hands together in this kind of unison, and your feet too, you make your own rhythm, like breathing. Your brain can switch off and you are just there, in the moment.

So you see, while the inspiration was gone, it was only temporarily replaced with self doubt and questioning. Although, I think those things are always there, they usually dont have the strength or the power to actually overwhelm the usual drive I have to create stuff. Experimenting with fiber always excites me, I just have to let go the worries about what other people will think of my creations, if they are ‘good enough’ and if they are even interesting to anyone but me. ย I think those are normal worries right? But they shouldn’t be so bad they stop me doing anything or beating myself up over what I do make. And its the same for you too, when they sneak attack you, send me a message, let me remind you how awesome you are! I am very grateful for the reminders I received last week, it really helps.

And now? If you havent noticed yet, I am usually a natural optimist, I suspect annoyingly so to the people around me. I don’t often get down about anything because I usually blithely carry on whatever I am doing on the assumption that either everything will work out or I will just deal with whatever mess I get myself into when I have to. This time it wasnt ‘blithely’ but I did carry on, and the outcome has totally revitalised EVERYTHING!

First – heres a little heads up insider information – theres something big coming up at SPIN ARTISTE (www.spinartiste.com) and you are going to LOVE it. It was ย a seed of an idea I offered to Arlene and she picked it up and ran with it and grew it into something fantastical. I am really excited but if I tell you what it is now I will have to kill ย you. Well not really. But its Arlenes secret to tell, just be warned, upcoming awesomeness for everyone!

Then there is a bunch of workshops already scheduled that I am SOOOO looking forward to, PLUS after chatting with my friend Patty we have decided to add to that schedule with a couple of extra workshops – one will be a Build ย Your Own Blending Board then Spin Those Rolags Girls! workshop, which will be coming sooner rather than later, and the other is a Spin Art to Freeform Weaving workshop! That will be later in the year, combining Pattys wealth of weaving experience with my spin techiniques and freeform weaving experiment discoveries -and we will have a range of equipment for you to try, from rigid heddle to floor looms! I think this is going to be a great introduction to anyone wanting to get into freeform weaving and a new use for art yarns and handspun. Personally, I am convinced this is the next big thing in fiber art!

So there you go, famine to feast in my head ย ๐Ÿ˜›

Next time you are having a blah day and feeling like youre as talented as a mossy fencepost in a swamp of blah, remember me. Its temporary, give yourself a break, a treat, some vitamins, and talk to someone else who is buzzing with ideas! It all comes right in the end I promise <3 And if all else fails, go to the beach!

13 Comments

  1. <3 who you are…

    • ahem….LOVE who you are! beautiful pic too, btw

  2. On this side of the Big Pond it’s the February blahs. I truly think this is the darkest month of the year.
    Thank goodness for my stash of spinning and weaving and knitting wools. Happy to hear you broke the chain of blahness!!

    • So much snow this year! Seems to be a bad winter everywhere in the Northern Hemisphere, and I am hearing from the southern that its a hot summer.. Good thing we have our distractions isnt it ;D

  3. I’m so glad you’re feeling good again! I wonder if it’s also a tired-of-Winter thing going around. I really love Winter. But I love fresh, snowy, crispy Winters. This Winter was too little snow really sticking to the ground and too much rain and gloom and I’m tired of being inside the whole time. I can’t wait for Spring now!
    Anywho ๐Ÿ˜‰ yay for renewed energy!
    And again, if you want to talk, I’m always here, just for venting or if you feel like bouncing off ideas ๐Ÿ˜‰

    I can’t wait for some more sales fairy visits, so I can have a new yarn splurge ๐Ÿ˜€
    (I still would really like that yarn we talked about, but I have to look up the pic again to remember how exactly it looked, lol!)

    And last but not least, I agree with everybody who said you’re an everyday inspiration! You certainly are for me! I check your page everyday, to get a colour fix ๐Ÿ˜‰

    • yes tired of being inside!! Roll on spring.. and the coming of the sales Fairy ๐Ÿ˜›

  4. The timing of this post is perfect! I’ve been floating in that swamp of blah for a couple of days. The reminder of Vit D is just what I need. And the photo of the yarn you posted has really grabbed my attention. The colors and the muted quality are so beautiful. I am now ready to tackle the custom order that had only the instructions of “blue and purple but not too bright”. I can actually see it now. Thank you so much!

    • Rhonda thats fantastic to hear ๐Ÿ™‚ I am so glad youre also keeping on paddling! The yarn in the photo is made from a roving I treated myself to and hoarded to give myself a happy spin with on a rainy day, it worked! I usually do my own dyeing but I loved this one from Heavenly Wools (NZ), she is an amazing dyer and this is the most gorgeous NZHalfbred fiber, it was perfect for a simple relaxing spin. I am glad youre got your custom order planned now, it can be so hard to find just the right colours for someone!

  5. It’s good to hear you bouncing back ๐Ÿ™‚ The world is a better place with your awesomeness in it!

  6. Glad thing are looking brighter! I have death of inspiration every now and then and it usally takes me a few days of just googeling, looking through books and ravelry before I find that little thing that lights a spark. And I really know the feeling about beeing insecure about what you create, but I think that is a good thing because that just tells me that I am passionate about what I am doing and that I hope everyone else can see why too. I know for sure that you are really passionate about your work, these days you are one of my biggest inspirations!

    • Thats a good way to look at it Silja ๐Ÿ™‚ If we weren’t passionate about what we are doing there wouldnt be blah days would there!

  7. soooo glad you are feeling better! and..you are right about all of us going thru the same down times.. but bouncing back is the pay-off! but..I think the beach was the real healer! you inspire us all!

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