Headaches and the Death of Inspiration?
This is a quick post with a dramatic title! Ok it is OVER dramatic. Inspiration is alive and well in the WoolWench house, it only took a short trip to the beach and returned with a suntan, a souvenir beachball with a happy face on it, and a whole bunch of new ideas. Phew.
I guess this happens to everyone sometimes, a brief hiatus in clear thinking, self doubt creeps up and insinuates itself in everything you do and thought you were pretty happy with, suddenly you find yourself wondering what you thought you were doing in the first place, questioning your ability to even successfully boil an egg, and feeling very very small in relationship to this whole universe/infinity thing. Its big. And it hits a bit like a runaway one of these:
Luckily we are ALL endowed with Wolverine-like powers of regeneration. I might have mentioned Dr Who-like regeneration but he comes back completely different, most of us are more like Wolverine and come back pretty much the same as we were before, although maybe with that much more determination and experience.
So I had a week of headache starting with a migraine. Blah. I sobbed my story on Facebook and got some lovely support and helpful suggestions. I took them. I rested, and I broke out the Vitamin D. I also ate some yummy Berry and Biscuit Whittakers chocolate (thank you Glynis!). I took the little guy for a walk at a nearby park, did some shopping, and watched Anna Karinina. And I did some spinning, nice simple spinning to relax with 🙂 Nothing but some nice music playing and the whirrrr of my Aura. THeres something incredibly theraputic about using your hands together in this kind of unison, and your feet too, you make your own rhythm, like breathing. Your brain can switch off and you are just there, in the moment.
So you see, while the inspiration was gone, it was only temporarily replaced with self doubt and questioning. Although, I think those things are always there, they usually dont have the strength or the power to actually overwhelm the usual drive I have to create stuff. Experimenting with fiber always excites me, I just have to let go the worries about what other people will think of my creations, if they are ‘good enough’ and if they are even interesting to anyone but me. I think those are normal worries right? But they shouldn’t be so bad they stop me doing anything or beating myself up over what I do make. And its the same for you too, when they sneak attack you, send me a message, let me remind you how awesome you are! I am very grateful for the reminders I received last week, it really helps.
And now? If you havent noticed yet, I am usually a natural optimist, I suspect annoyingly so to the people around me. I don’t often get down about anything because I usually blithely carry on whatever I am doing on the assumption that either everything will work out or I will just deal with whatever mess I get myself into when I have to. This time it wasnt ‘blithely’ but I did carry on, and the outcome has totally revitalised EVERYTHING!
First – heres a little heads up insider information – theres something big coming up at SPIN ARTISTE (www.spinartiste.com) and you are going to LOVE it. It was a seed of an idea I offered to Arlene and she picked it up and ran with it and grew it into something fantastical. I am really excited but if I tell you what it is now I will have to kill you. Well not really. But its Arlenes secret to tell, just be warned, upcoming awesomeness for everyone!
Then there is a bunch of workshops already scheduled that I am SOOOO looking forward to, PLUS after chatting with my friend Patty we have decided to add to that schedule with a couple of extra workshops – one will be a Build Your Own Blending Board then Spin Those Rolags Girls! workshop, which will be coming sooner rather than later, and the other is a Spin Art to Freeform Weaving workshop! That will be later in the year, combining Pattys wealth of weaving experience with my spin techiniques and freeform weaving experiment discoveries -and we will have a range of equipment for you to try, from rigid heddle to floor looms! I think this is going to be a great introduction to anyone wanting to get into freeform weaving and a new use for art yarns and handspun. Personally, I am convinced this is the next big thing in fiber art!
So there you go, famine to feast in my head 😛
Next time you are having a blah day and feeling like youre as talented as a mossy fencepost in a swamp of blah, remember me. Its temporary, give yourself a break, a treat, some vitamins, and talk to someone else who is buzzing with ideas! It all comes right in the end I promise <3 And if all else fails, go to the beach!